Seven months ago, I lost my father. Today, I lost my mother too. In spite of the experience, it feels horrible and worst. But that's life and it's fair.
I feel very sad. I miss her smiling and telling me "Your a flower and a Bulbul". Even ICU conditions didn't stop her from saying it repeatedly. I always looked her in the eye and responded "I am the son of a flower and a Bulbul". It's very sad that I can no longer hear her say that and respond to her. It's so sad to loose the soul that made me feel good about myself. But that's life and it's fair.
Mostly, I feel lonely and nervous. I know we all need God's blessings to survive challenges of life. We use many channels to communicate with God and seek his blessings. Parents are our two most fastest channels to God. November 19th I lost one of the two channels and today I lost the second. Now I am 53 and all alone with God. But that's life and it's fair.
She was an excellent role model and generous by all means. She was generous in being down to earth, sacrificial, loving the poor, happy, patient, kind, optimistic, elegant, thankful, organized, polite, caring, hard worker, best cook, social, sincere, wise, beautiful, loyal, so clean and a good Muslim.
Don't blame my eyes if they rain tears. It's enough to tell you about her eating plain rice and dividing all the meat among us. We are no longer kids and understand now what she did for us.
May Allah bless her soul and reward her Jannaht AlFirdows together with other flowers and Bulbuls.
So dear mother and father, until we meet, stay beautiful as usual. Your my flower and Bulbul. I love you both. I am proud of you both.
To Allah we belong and to him we return.
"My Lord, have mercy upon them as they brought me up [when I was] small." Quran 17:24
"And Paradise will be brought near to the righteous, not far, [It will be said], "This is what you were promised - for every returner [to Allah ] and keeper [of His covenant]. Who feared the Most Merciful unseen and came with a heart returning [in repentance]. Enter it in peace. This is the Day of Eternity. They will have whatever they wish therein, and with Us is more." Quran 50:31 to 35.
June 27, 2019
